I am a sad sappy sucker for anything warm, alone, detaching.

I could amount the powders
and loss of feeling
and emotion
and exclude myself forever.

All encompassing velvet blanket. 

disappear into dark

I am obsessed with this.

warm sweet itch. I want to not want. I want to never want. 

The order it brings. Everything so deep in me

I am obsessed with you

white warm 

true

I'll pay for my happiness like the rest of you