buy it

i dont want to grow old
i dont want to lose me
is that what growing up is?
losing yourself
and meshing into the surrounding junk
fitting in, making money
burying yourself
its getting old
the days go by so fast
i keep losing track
of the months
trying to get you back

5pm no different then 3am at this point.
siting, heart racing out of control
just listen to the music
try to forget
your bigger than this
your not a fucking mess
listen to the beat
suppress your emotions
lay down
5pm no different then 3am
self loathing
really just a fucking mess